* twenty good years.

haha. that comedy show this evening was simply amusing.

in any case. that's not why im here. i feel the need to narrate an event today. rahhh*


somebody was voicing out about a trip to genting with his friends, when ____ [not myself, yet! haha.] interrupted with stg skeptical- quoting back ups like its the raining season etc etc.

i tink. this somebody must have misconstrued ____'s harmless concern as a prognostication of her inability to let somebody fly off from the nest. heh.

this somebody suddenly made an outburst
"i'll be twenty next year!"
which i find utterly inappropriate considering how ridiculous it sounded when its ____ he was talking to, and that ____ had only slightly misunderstood the context of the discussion.

i also find the outburst inappropriate considering the lack of pre-frontal lobe development accompanying the stipulated age, on his part.

and so. being the outspoken me, as it is. i blatantly made a remark.
"then remember the responsibilities of being twenty.!"

and i admit, that on my part, i may have been wrong to react impulsively yet again. but i was merely retaliating on a point that he have been utterly oblivious about. or perhaps so frequently forgot.? i dunno.

any way. so what are the replies of a somebody i've tried so hard to find reasons for giving respect besides that of status quo.?

"ahhh, diam lah kau.!"
top of the somebody's voice. period.


and now im finding solace frm blogging.! herr.

somebody's counter has just made two steps back in the game of 'deserve your respect'. yet again. i'm not helping, i know. but why must it always appear to be my fault, i do not know.

but im perfectly fine with it. uhhuh.

just like how my life is perfectly pretty,
minus all these. =)


descriptive writing recollected,
Munirah.


PS: im not seeking justification from here, so please do not reply anything regarding this post on my tagboard. haha.

PPS: and. please do not make me talk if you need greater elucidation of my perspective. because i will only breakdown, im serious. hoho.

* you've got mail.

i dunno where to start.

having all the time in the world actually makes me think a lot about all other random things. perhaps things i should not be thinking of to begin with.

and so of course. that would make them things i should not be blogging about. nyahahaa.

so there you have it.

an update, by your forever miss all smiles.

and i cant get more appreciative than all this.


life is love,
*munirah.


PS: sat-sun weddings were pretty. but im missing the innocent days where we cousins get to be the little kendarat crew and be ignorant of wedding politics. old people can get so trivial. but who cares, im still being loved. haha.

PPS: do you know that ice creams are great for easing boredom.? uhhuh. especially when there's a constant free supply. nyaah.

PPPS: i loveee rainy days.! but i tink its causing me pain. tissues pleaseee. or perhaps its the icecreams. hoho.

* defining love.

a girl's charmed life.

FAMILY.
the members. the outings.

early morning drive. coffeeshop breakfast, pratas and teh tarik.

west coast park. playgrounds. sea shores. zephyr.
slow long walks. conversations. laughters.

random car rides. lck deserted roads. berries picking. plants, lanes of trees.
information. reminiscence. cemeteries [minus point.]. MOE's Jln Bahtera campsite.
home cooking. appreciation.

decisive. plannings. unmaking plans [minus point.].
driving license chats. dear friends.

family. family. family.

random. late nights.

sleep. oversleep. ter-oversleep. all the time in the world.!
ter-early wake ups, too.

hospitals. [minus point.]. clean toilets.! driven.

shopping mall wanderings, bugis junction. apple pies. mrt rides.!

meet-ups.!

FLOORBALL.
the game. the team.

the desolated venue, orange building. haha.

guys/girls Team Innova. 20mins turn takings. J1s/J2s. facing off. center-ing. defending. attacking. own-goaling. half-court scoringS. floor-rolling laughing. injuries. blind stick dividings. random groupings. panting-dying-aching-twirling fun. pictures. guy's game, excitement.

warm-ups.! tsk tsk.

floorball. floorball. floorball.

non-condusive toilet [minus point]. toilet cramping craps. umbrella opening attempt. hot.! sunny. windy. my girls. conversations.

free flows. KFC. dinner talks. indecisiveness. good-byes. coach msging. hyper-ing. bus ride [minus!].

drop off. night walks. City Hall. pretty toilet.! Funan, Swensens. team voucher, free ice creams. earthquakes digging. pictures. feedback form filling. laughters. nonsenses.

my girls. my girls. my girls.

road-crossing. times two. Peninsulas wanderings. eh main hockey sey, FLOORBALL. laughs. mrt, no bouncing. so pack please. good-byes.

mrt ride, blissful. too much. yishun terminated. good-byes again.

night walk. home sweet home. chips more cookies.

HOME sweet HOME.

msg wake-ups. bustops. old school.! meet-ups. certificates. applications, times three. northpoint. sundaes, muffins.

ice cream days.

walk home. floodings.!

RAIN. rain. rain.!

more and more rain. wee.!

three days of my charmed life, recapitulated.


love defined,
*Munirah Bte Md Sani.


PS: stop questioning. just the way it is, life is pretty.! love it. =))

* uptown girls.

i love the movies tonight.


nyahahaa.


know how i rarely watch movies with my friends.? and i really mean, RAREly. i can count with just one hand, perhaps. ahah. well.


'Uptown Girls' happen to be among the few. that was after sec 2's streaming exams, i tink. hee.



sweet memories. those were the days. =)))




ouwh. my biological clock have gone cuckoo. but no worries. nothing teminal as of yet. ahah.

alright. Panic Room.! i pity that family uh. heh.


every ending is a new beginning,
*MUNIRAHHH.


PS: family is ALL the love i need now, uhhuh. i love my life lah please. nyahahaa. wee.! =))

* my roller coaster.

Wednesday - Thursday. gorgeous.

im still feeling all woozy from the weird sleeping hours. nyaah.

Abg Dir was our dear chauffeur for the night. was very nice of him.! Sweet.! Nyahahaa. Visited cpang for some supper supplies, and headed to pick aye up at 8pm. cost 30mins of our lifes thz to issues with our mobile phones. The whole thing was hilarious, really. Nyaah.

Had some nervous moments regarding the whereabouts of our chalet, thz to sya's msges.

"any sig landmark.?"
"hmms. Its dark? ... follow the road from change village. near OCH."

As I read the msg out loud in the comfort of the car,

"what’s OCH.?"
"old change hospital gaknyer?"
"OUWH. Muahahahahaa."

And we got lost from a couple of turns, only to realize that we've been traveling on netharavon and that we've passed the huge unattractive banner with 'Aloha' written - that place is very well lit at night, mind you.

you can even forget OCH is nearby, im serious.! Ahah.

There were a few awkwark moments initially, felt like we were crashing them when we've been invited actually. Sya's classmates were very friendly. But im such a social retard please; aye is worst. Nyaah.

Got acquainted with the bungalow, yes. Then hang outside – the night air tinged with aftermath of the rain was gorgeous - though wet, ahah. Found a reason to explore the areas for more supplies - aye's myth abt balding heads dint work. Nyahahaa.

So off we went, with my most trustworthy chauffeur. Somebody got uptight about forgetting to bring her wallet. Tsk tsk.

"its not on my dining table, I called home. I'll dig my bag again later."
"maybe it dropped in the car?"
"no lah, impossible."

So we bought more supplies. At Cheers and that foodcourt. Walking around there felt weird without my parents. Was hopeful to see some pons, but disappointed. Headed back to the carpark, to realize my dear chauffeur dint lock the car.! Omg.

Checked the interior to see if anything was missing, alhamdulillah ntg weird happened. BUT.

"OMG. MY WALLET.! HAHAHAHAHAA."
"HAHA.! so much for no lah impossible, you idiot.! Nyahahaa."

So that spells the end of aye's uptight moments. Now she's got money and ezlink card to go home.! Hah.

Good bye to my dear chauffeur. Leaving me, aimah, and aye at Bungalow F. no, im not cursing. that's the chalet's alphabet. ahah.

Yada yada yada. We eventually migrated from level 2 where we watched half of 'PRIDE AND PREJUDICE' (haha.) to the level 1 bedroom where we finished 'Meet The Fockers'. Yes, very old vids indeed - somebody forgot that she was supposed to bring dvd supplies.! WHO UH.?!

SSSSSSSS - HOEEEEEEE.!
- cute kid from the show mimicking the fav words of aye. Muahahaa.

When all done. Dearest Sya forced us to break out from our refuge and join the other inmates in the hall. There, we engaged in a game of UPWORDS where we learnt that 'two heads are better than one'. Followed by a series of UNO where each of us can only uno-game first twice in a night. coincidentally.?

someone was struggling not to be on the bottom table, haha.

Old-school games, gorgeous for a change. i actually forgot how tat game works, can you believe it.? Tsk tsk.

It got stale after a while, I was multi-tasking between not letting aye win, and building a pyramid with the mahjong blocks. Ouwh no noo, we did not gamble. Ahah.

Around 3am. Our rock-bottom moments disappeared as "we've exceeded the threshold of being sleepy" Sya explains. Ahah. the other inmates turn in around 4am. so we talked. And we laughed. And we talk talk talk to our heart's contentment.

My hp alarm rang, it was 6am.! And we dint even realize time was flying. Ouwh, the luxury of having all the time in the world. =))

The night was gorgeous. i'll miss moments like this. Sya even lost her voice.! Hee.

Soon, inmates woke up one by one for breakfast. We watched the same scene on Channel News Asia 3 times.! 7am, 8am, and 9am. ahah. fixed the meeting time/venue with the other half of SCAMZS. And we returned to our room.

Yada yada. Forced myself to get a nap at least. I tink sya woke me up an hour later. Showered, got dressed, packed up. And off we went at around 12pm. We're finally free.!

Aye just kept saying the place feels like a juvenile home, you see. The curtains, furnishing, and what nots. Makes me wonder how she knows a juvenile home feels like in the first place. Ahah.!

THANK YOU SYAHIDA DARLING.! For the invite.! Wee hee.!

Managed to snap a few pics. The bus stop was at a very convenient location. =)

29-ed to Tamp. 969-ed to Yishun.! On foot to BK yish GV. And we were right on time! 1.30pm sharp. Hee.

The bus ride was longgg. I prefer the mrt, hee. But ouwh well.! Lovely talk with aimah, though she's always stoning as usual. Nyahahaa.

Yada yada yada.

Bought food. NAZ joined.! Wee. Ate, talked, laughed. Many interrupting phonecalls. Finished eating, talked, laughed. Thennnn, an hour later. YUNI and CHER joined.! Wee hee.

So there you have it. SCAMZS reunited 3 months earlier before our annual anniversary meet-ups. Hee.

More and more talkings. And laughings, crappings, stonings, lip-readings, whatnots.

Two hours later, we almost decided to make a move. Took pictures-pictures before goodbyes, the rudimentary. Thz to aimah for her photographic help.? Ahah. Shifted to another seat with prettier sitting arrangement. Only to end up talking moreeee there. Nyahahaaa.

Sya left us, cos she was totally stoning already. Rock bottom, aye says. 31+ hours spent waking plus lost of voice.? gosh, poor thing.

I learnt that aye and me are truly best friends, cos we do not use the same shampoo? Ouwh, and we turned to look. Credits to Cher's analysis. Nyahahaa.

The conversation moved to random topics. Ended up bitching about some ex-ai pple whom I dint bother to get acquainted with in the first place, I lost interest in the subject. Bottoms were already tired, so decided to head homeee. Well, the whole clique made a move too eventually. Ahah.

So we left together, to the ladies, and eventually dispersed at the top of the main escalator.

So that's the end of another pretty SCAMZS meet up.

Members : Shafinaz, Cheryl, Ayuni, Munirah, Zahirah, Syahida.
Date : 29 November 2007
Time : 1.30 – 5.30 pm
Venue : Burger King Golden Village Yishun
Purpose:
Clearing the I-MISS-SCAMZS syndrome.
Rejoice in the POST-EXAMS PERIOD.


Minuted by :
MS MUNIRAH BTE M.S.
The 'M' in SCAMZS.


PS: I love my gorgeous darlings.! Every initials in SCAMZS. Wee.!

PPS: I've missed my home sweet home, hee. Ouwh, and the people in it.

PPPS: Im sorry about the online convo, for no longer being much of a confidante. You put me in an awkward position please.

PPPPS: And im sorry about the string of msges, I hope all ends well for us both. InsyaAllah. Again, thanks for everything. =))

* stop. rewind. play.

tuesday.

postponed blading with lala, cos i decided to clean up my room. HAH. sorry gerl.

shifted here and there. its much spacious, though im still not contented. im just too filled with languor to continue. plus, its not like im getting much of a help around here - to think that the amount of dust accumulated was actually contributed by two people at least. bleargh.

and yes, with the dust and all. it's inherent that i get cranky when im cleaning up my room. so please. leave it.

ouwh. i do not understand. it's disturbing either or.

i want college days all over again. then i'll get to sleep at 2 every morning. and still wake up at 6 every morning. tired, but not feeling useless.

what defines the freedom after exams when i spend waking hours _____ _______ and getting heartaches from _____ ______ when my nights would be an undisputable peaceful alternative. even that is wrong.

perhaps its disgusting that ladies turn nocturnal. hmms.

i want to get out and work. so i wont feel so lame and lousy at home.

i need ___ to be ____ ____. so i'll find it easier to give respect when responsibilities that ties with that respect being due are done. even the story of that reject-ntu-go-nie guy dint seem to ring any bells in ___ head. perhaps im being selfish and nonsensical to expect ___ to grow up. but with him being just as ______, i'm feeling more useless than ever at home.!

ouwh people. him is not referring to my dad.
my dad is very well indeed.
him is the other one im not sure to intepret as being ignorant or purely having under-developed pre-frontal lobes.

if the first. i'll find hard to give respect.
if the second. i'll be very afraid right now. plus that of the first.

and im not sure why im ____ target when i've spent lesser school-less days being useless than ____.

im still feeling cranky from post-spring-cleaning session. it would have been a much pleasant activity if i had done it in my i've-all-the-time-in-the-world spirits. ironically, i do have all the time in the world.! so why was i feeling rushed.? hmms. nvm that. im glad my room is all, cleaner.

meeting sya and aye online is such a pleasant break from my useless-ness. im glad i've been granted permission to overnight with them at the chalet on wednesday. precisely what i needed. my old darlings. woo hoo. such timely moment.

babes night, sya said. yeahh, been a very long while.
'i'll bring some pills cos im scared of needles', aye said.
she already donated blood twice okay.! nonsense. nyahahaa.

dear parents of mine, do not worry. you've taught me well. =)
i will not succumb to such, cos my pre-frontal lobe is pretty developed.? nyaah.

after my last entry, six people still had to ask me if im going for prom. i guess typing 'ps:...' here doesnt work. but i still like 'ps:...'-ing. nyaah.

dont forget to send me pics of midas' touches.! and i'll post plenty of our chalet nite, if we resort to camera-[i do not like using this word] after the pills. nyahahaa. joking.

least i'll come home to a cleannn room on thurs ey.! wee.

im still amuse how my blog entries always end with me being on hyped-mode. despite usually starting with tinges of depressions.

im still feeling useless btw. and fyi. i've just turned down an offer to relief teach. guess as what.?
some malay communication thingy. gosh.! i can never force myself to speak in baku malay like the kind spore's edu system forces us to.! i'd feel so, fake.?

hidup pasar.! ikan selar kuning ni sekilo braper cik.? muahaa.

[reminded me of a conver i had with one of my dearrr uncle. hilariously pityful.? hmms.]

ouwh. i've lost my fingerprints again. the thumb and pointer.

who needs an accomplice to murder someone.? hire me. i wont leave a trail.! hoho.

witness spastic in action. im done. hee. nites.!

it's 1.12am now. im gonna pray. and sleep.! so that i'll wake up early tmr.! for what.? no idea.

lets hope i dun miss subuh. if i stay up the whole night, i knowww i wont miss my subuh.! but ouwh well. i shall revert to being a normal lady who sleeps at night and wakes up in the morning from now on ey.

if that makes you happy. omg.! since when i turn to becoming so trivial and childish.?!

ouwh. maybe since i realise its okay to indulge in a series of 'Go-Go-Power-Rangers.!' at the age of __ and still be the apple of ____'s eyes.

omg. i really am so trivial.! damn it. im sorry to whom ever i've so ignorantly made a mockery of.

i really am sorry.

shit. i feel like crying, again. but i wont. cos i want to sleep, telling myself that i am a happy kid.

i am a happy kid.! when i stop being trivial. i really am.!
have always been, and will always be.

learn to appreciate.
life aint all unfair.
it's pretty, in fact.

alhamdulillah, for everything else.


sorry, a million times.
*munirah.

ps: this was typed in front of a fan, a day after i realised im useless. you do not want to know what i've typed preceding this posted entry. nah'uh.

pps: the chalet plan with babes was utterly impromtu. so exciting.! wee. =))

*ending of an end.?

OUWH MY GOD.

this really is the day.! it really has ended.! it is really all over.!

im feeling very, very spastic.

i was fidgeting about half an hour before the paper ended, cos i had surprisingly finished it superrr early. ouwh my.

annd. i was repeatedly versing "alhamdulillah" the moment that nice invigilator collected my script today.! even hum this super old Raihan tune. haha.!

at the same time. it ended all too soon.! two years of my life just went, woosh.! done. depressing, dont you think.?

i enjoyed that last walk down the rows of table in the hall. it was gorgeous. haha.

tables D19. M2. and J19. =)

was euphoric seeing darling naz, pulled her to say "IT'S OVER.!" but instead, she turned all euphoric herself and throw me a hugeee euphoric hug, shrieking stgs super sweet euphorically. gosh, i miss that darling. and all of a sudden, dee jumped over euphorically and throw me another superrr huge euphoric hug, i was shocked by the continuous burst of euphoria. both stopped hugging me, and hug among themselves. before dispersing to our separate ways after a short conver. god. okay, i've missed them both.

i've missed SCAMZS and TJJTs.

and im gona miss IJC. much muchh muchhh.

headed to the libraria where darling lala and me distributed the 23 11D Grad Videos we had meticulously prepared before the papers. yes, it was a very trying moment for us both to get it completed. nyahahaa.

i thought lala did a perfect job, i was very touched myself watching the vid. she burnt a copy for me too.! up to now, i've viewed it 4 times.! nyahahaa.

breakfast with darling 11D. i'm feeling more attached to these darlings after the two years being cgmates. probly cos its a smaller group that the kind of classes we had it sec school. in any case, i'll definitely miss them. much to my dismay.

separated later on. cos someone was SLEEPY, boo cookie.! nyahaa. was left with lala and sofy. ahh* they're great companies. bowling at SAFRA and lunch at LJS. blissful moments. =))

everything was random impromtu btw.

met Sya darling at GV.! OMG. super pleasant surprise.! i miss that ladyyy.! was literally running from my seat to her.! though she dint give me a huge, sad, but least i MET her.! nyahahaa.
and aye msged to congratulate me for the completion of A's. she met dee, but not me.! boo.! so. i called her back to hear her voice.! ahah.! missed them both.

later. headed to my home, nearby. did our prayers, and watched the videos. ahh* pretty. ahah. my house, no no, my ROOM was in a mess.! it still is actually, haha. thot i'd be paisey, but ouwh well. they comforted me by challenging who's room is messier. haha.!

post-exam states. =)

overall. veryyy pleasant. i miss laughing so much. my stomach hurts.

and ouwh. i ran with aimah in the evening, haha.! like erps. finally.! dun ask how long, haha.

yada yada yada.

aimah is another wonderful company. nyahahaa.

im heading to lala's house again tmr.! third for the week.? tsk tsk. ahah. least she promised she'd vacuum her room today.! nyaah.

okay. im gonna do what i've promised myself at the start of A's.

WATCH PRIDE & PREJUDICE AT THE END OF A'S.!
one solid month of resisting this temptation okayyy. nyahahaa.

i lost count of how many times i've played that dvd. but who cares.! i've alllll the time in the world now.! nyahahaa.

ouwh ouwhh.! the freelance job i did on monday was soo time-consuming.! and i had another batch yesty nite. can you imagine, the day before Bio Paper 1.?! thank god the paper went smoothly today. hee.

alhamdulillah.

ouwh goddd.

im so gonna miss college days.!

and we just got reminded today, that our ezlink card would soon turn void.! nyahaa.

im missing the need to study already, haha.

okay. im missing a lot of things already. how short-sighted i've been all these while.! there's still too long a journey ahead.

ahhhhhh*

and and. i dint do one thing i was suppose to do today. im sorry.

okay nvm. im done.

22/11/2007. pretty pretty.

once again. alhamdulillah, syukur nikmat. hee. =)


PRIDE AND PREJUDICE,
*MUNIRAH.


ps: and dear people. im nottt wearing a dress, and im soo nottt with any guy.! yes, the answer is NO. i'm not going for prom.! nyahaa.
and and. for reasons i do not wish to impose on yall, so dont ask why.? but Have Fun ey.! hee. =))

*two days, say yayyy.!

omg.

im using my abg's comp. and its soooo frigging fast.! relatively to mine or the laptop, that is. rahhh.!

sometimes. i really hope people would stop emailing me, ahah. but i tend to find 'religious' emails elucidating, minus the 'pls forward this...' part. nyahahaa. was in a mood of clearing up my 302 unread emails, when i found an article.

here's a portion, if you bother reading...


Di akhirat nanti ada 4 golongan lelaki yg akan ditarik masuk ke neraka oleh wanita. Lelaki itu adalah mereka yg tidak memberikan hak kpd wanita dan tidak menjaga amanah itu. Mereka ialah:

1. Ayahnya. Apabila seseorang yg bergelar ayah tidak mempedulikan anak2 perempuannya didunia. Dia tidak memberikan segala keperluan agama seperti mengajar solat, mengaji dan sebagainya Dia membiarkan anak2 perempuannya tidak menutup aurat. Tidak cukup kalau dgn hanya memberi kemewahan dunia sahaja. Maka dia akan ditarik ke neraka oleh anaknya.

(p/s; Duhai lelaki yg bergelar ayah, bagaimanakah hal keadaan anak perempuanmu sekarang? Adakah kau mengajarnya bersolat & saum?..menutup aurat?..pengetahuan agama?.. Jika tidak cukup salah satunya, maka bersedialah utk menjadi bahan bakar neraka jahanam.)

if you're wondering. the husband's at #2, brothers at #3 and sons at #4. =)


uhhuh.
it sounds scary, that your sins are not only made accountable to yourself but the people around you whom you love.

i hope i wont be the one dragging my love ones down there, insyaAllah.

dan kepada kawan-kawan kesayanganku. i do not mean to be so blatant, but please. think about it. you people are already so pretty. Singapore's 'muslim' community may no longer place so much emphasis on wearing tudungs, but what's with the added effort of mendedahkan diri korang.? equivalent to the efforts of pulling your fathers down thereee.? tsk tsk.

i used to feel disappointed/pityful/saddd seeing people i know, like that.
now. i feel more sad for the parents, instead of for the friends.
hoho.

[sorry, my language sounds weird here. fusions of eng and karat-malay. ahah.]

in any case.! today.
im PISSED at _____. for 10 seconds while waiting for her ezlink to be topped up. for being so ignorant of her card value that i've to pass her moneyyy when i've already entered the mrt gantry [whatever you call it]. rahhh.!
im PISSED at _____. for about 10 seconds while typing an sms. cos she stood me up, rahhh.!
im PISSED at HOTMAIL. for about 10 mins for preventing me from viewing an important email.!

so. that's 10mins 20secs of being pissed today. haiii* whom ever involved,
i sooo wanna hate you, but
I LOVE YOU PLEASEEE.!
nyahahaa.

ouwh. A's gonna enddd.! wee.!
god. i love 22nd. haha.

and ouwh. yes. im already getting employed, from home. ahah.! that's the rudimentary reason for my mailbox spring cleaning session. simple admin work, not much of a pay, but its okayyy. let me do stg more beneficial with the laptop. frm HOME. hoho.

and anddd. i hope JPS needs relief teachers early next year. then i can see my brothers while at work, nearrr HOME. nyahahaa. just received the email that i've been registered by MOE. so exciting.! HAHA. =))))

to ____,
do not fret. i'll alwayyys be your home-bound girl.! not by force, but by choice. nyahahaa.

i find it amusing how my cgmates would always refer to me when they're picking venues for cg-outing. cos i generally refuse to go far-far, and they'll miss me. rite aixin.?? ahah.!

and so. everyone will noe. that my fav outing place is...? _________.! wee.

ouwh wait.! i forgot.! BIO paper 3 updates.
was weeheeeee.! only one paper lefffft! nyahahaa.

still couldnt complete my prelim papers during practice the night before, so that got me pretty nervous. but guess what. i completed A's in 1hr 30mins.! im still not understanding the mechanism of my brain. how it refuses to function at high speed during normal hours even if i force myself to (like when im eating, ahah!) but miraculously doing so only under exam conditions.

ouwh no. edit. it was still stubborn during prelims.
only under A's exam conditions. haha.

the structured questions were manageable. there wasnt any truncation of my thoughtlines in the 9 pages. except.! the last very retarding qns about nitrogen compounds which did not even sound like a bio qns.! i did crapped stg, which sounded rite, but ouwh well. thank god its 2 disposable marks, ahah.!

BUT. the one-choose-ONE essay was rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

feel the sentiments.? it got me breathless. nyahahaa. the very one chapter of lect notes which i chose to 'skim thru' costed 2o marks. NOT disposable okayyy. i wasnt much interested about SCID or CFTRs to commit them into my limited memory space. yada yada yadaaa.

well. least i did vaguely rmb a mutation of the CFTR gene which causes the deletion of phenylalanine, where.? haha. preventing the efflux of Cl- ions and influx of Na+ ions and retention of water molecules, so.? haha. then.? haha. anddd.? haha.

one page of answer, with only one line dedicated to SCID.
"SCID is an inheritable disease which is caused by the mutation of genes coding for proteins involved in the functioning of the immune system, thus producing dysfunctional polypeptides..."
i can imagine what MrsY wud have done to my script...

red markings with 'WHERE.?' 'SO.?' 'HOW.?' anddd 'YOUR HEAD AH!'.
nyahahaa. i'll miss that. im not even sure if SCID is inheritable, sh*t. and NOthing came out abt the human genome project. laughhhh.

okay. shall stop abt bio. i've shading-squares paper on thurs. wee wee.

roamed arnd sch after that, taking pics of our venues of enlightenment as if A's is over. and we got a pic of a blue place, reminds me of the day SCAMZS was formed. ahah.! i love them, the roaming people.

what we did after leaving IJ shall not be mentioned till after thurs. in case aixin drops by too early and figure out stg-stg. haha.

alright. this post is tooooooo longgggg.

omg, i just realised. the time on my abg's comp is soo retarded. its already 9.38pm but its 5hours outdated here. no wonder my abg is like that. ahah.! jokinggg.

kay. off off. sofia just recently found out that if the alarm clock ringsss, it just went off and not on. haha.!

alright. seriously. im gone. byeee.!

im feeling spastic talking to myself. okay, next victim.

aimahhh, where are youuuuuu.?

one last _____ to kill,
nyahahaa,
*muniRAHHHHH.

ps: its RAINING. and its LOVELY. i hate my abg for getting the windy-er room.! rahhh.! nyahahaa.

pps: i still do hate lifts. lala's house is highhh. nyahahaa.

ppps: i wanna eat.! hee. =)))))))))))

*my girl.!

aimah's home.! hee.!

and we're eating ChipsMore.! nyahahaa.

gosh. my 11D darlings just had a cookie party for lunch on friday, before our chem paper. and im eating cookies again.! im sooo getting ____.! wee.! nyahahaa.

aimah. cookies. RAIN. laptop. tv. what prettier way to spent my digression period. AHAH.

just five mins of homemakeover, i've teared. the amount of appreciation shown. was really touching please.! nyaah. i was amazed by how easily moved i got. which makes me realised. i may be laughing almost 24/7 but im actually super ________.

if throughout our course of friendship, you've witness moments of my breaking down. then i shall declare you, a truly darling friend of mine. and i love you so much.! nyahahaa.

wee hee.

and ouwh. dad asked me stg today. and im ______. again. hah.

okay. im off to continue with prelim papers. aimah shall stop being sucha distraction. ahah. but there's another distraction. the rain is so lovely.!

ahh* lovely.

nyahahaa.

no worries, i've slept enough. like a ___. so yes, i shall stay focus today. HAH.

cant wait for bio paper3 to end. cos then, i'll have a project to complete with dear lala.!
dead lines. woah.

so exciting. nyahahaa.


expression vectors of recombinant loves,
*MUNIrahhh.!

ps: i love bio, ahah.

un-deprived*

nyahahaa.

i kept typing 'On Hiatus' for the past uncountable entries yet im still updating at the rate i've always been obliviously on. have you realised.? ahah.

i'll do myself a favour by eradicating any temptations of typing 'On Hiatus' for this entry. since. it'll only last for FIVE days.

yeah baby. FIVE days to 22nd November 2007.! and my journey of an ending shall conclude.

im beginning to feel that i do not deserve to celebrate on 22nd. cos i've already lost the nerves surrounding A's, a week ago.! nyahahaa.

ouwh. thank god bio's my last two papers. least im able to preserve the momentum of muggings on the basis of love for the subject. imagine if it was _____.!

ahah, go figure.

exam updates. i was amuse by the intro to chem paper 2, ahah. completed paper 1, again for the first time in a very veryyy long time. overall. both were wayyy merciful than the frigging paper 3. though i shall not comment if they're sufficient to alleviate my paper3 idioticity. [im not sure if the word exist. it just sounds nice, ahah.]

econs was, a complete relieve to be over. nyahahaa. i hate the darn essay please. both case studies were of familiar context, all credits to MrC. but i hateee the darn essay pleaseee. the microecons qns was rahhh.! and i was forced to ans the macroecons qns instead.

when i've neverrr attempted a macro qns thruout the plethora of econs mock tests before, NEVER.

fiscal and monetary policies, you better not screw me up.! nyaah.

anyway. when to JPS [my two idiotic lil brothers' primary school] on thurs. yes, before Chem P1, ahah.

A Family Bliss- The Musical. performed by lil kiddds. OMG. simply adorable pleasee.! nyahahaa. nothing fascinating abt the plot, or the singings. just the mere fact of lil kids performing, wearing nonsensical 'monsterous' costumes. on stage. adorable lah. nyahahaa.

breaking away frm the rudimentary shows on tv, it was pretty. kudos to the lil JPS kids for such an entertainment. simple adorable.

n ouwh.! yuni's lil sister was up there performing too. she was smiling so huge, made me miss my primary school days.! nyahahaa.

anddd. rahhh.! MY DARLING SISTER IS GONE.!

for tonight, only. nyahahaa. some environmental club camp thingy, she'll be sleeping with the sharks at Sentosa's Underwater World. bleargh, why dint we get to do such fun things.? so much for being VC of Green Club in AI.! nyaahaa.

i hope she'll get to clean up the dolphin's droppings. muahahaa.

anddd. my family went to Johor today.! watched movie, yada yada. while i choosed to be left behind. why.?

because i love biology, haha.
i need to define stem cells, they are undifferentiated cell mass.! know where to find totipotent, pluripotent, and multipotent ones.
i need to define clones. and rmb to autoclave only the culture medium in tissue cloning instead of the whole explant. because subjecting them to high temp and pressure will kill my little plant, gong gong.
i know what's auxin and cytokinin.! ahah.
i need to rmb the temperatures for denaturation, hybridisation, and elongation during PCR.
do you know where taq polymerase comes from.? Thermophilus aquaticus.! i tink. underline the genus and species.! not needed in syllabus actually. nyahahaa*
i need to remind myself not to mix up molecular hybridisation and southern blotting.!
i need to phrase my ethical problems related to gene theraphy so that i wud not sound spastic writing a GP essay instead.!
i need to know that direct bombardment using gene gun is totally diff from microinjection, ahah.
and i've not attempted to rmb the viral and non-viral vectors in gene theraphy.! omggg.

okay. i've just successfully recalled some of the stuffs i rmb seeing today. and the list goes onnn..

which means. im unprepared for monday.! hoho.

and anddd. i was reprimanded by dear MrsY during consultation slot,
'AND YOU. WRITE DOWN WHAT YOU THINK.!'
cos i happen to always thinkkk out the correct answers, but i havent been writing them during exams. nyahahaa.

so so. practice practice practice.!

uhhuh. prelim papers, here i come.! but first, i wanna eat dinner. ahah.!

notice how excited i get about bio papers.? if only i've this much love for my other subjects, since the start of college days, i'll be love-drained by now.! nyahahaa*

i tink the conversation i had with dad earlier today was amusing. ahah.

ad i tink i've been eating a lot off late. but whatever. who cares about getting fattt when im stress.! ahah.!

alright. i'll do myself a favour by resuming my morning runs, soon. and i'll play floorball again.! soon.! ouwh no noo, you sooo cant stop me.! nyahahaa.

life's a bliss.
treasure the moments.
wee hee.


genomic libraries of love.
*MUNIrahhh.! =))

PS: i'll miss these days. where studying is all that matters. god, you're full of irony. nyahahaa.

still on HIATUS.

but i need this blog-therapy. why?

I SIMPLY REFUSE TO MUG TONIGHT.
haha.

spells failure on my part.? yes. tell me about it.

3 consecutive major papers for my H2 subjects. today's papers were better than yesty, but they're enough to drive me to complete languor.

please do not curse me if you happen to be among those H1 geographers with 4 consecutive papers. i emphatise, really i do. but having my darling H1 Econs flanked in between *bleargh* next week technically is of equivalent retardation on my part.

Chem's next, and im soo not looking forward to it considering how i've explicitly portrayed my inept self to the almighty cambridge examiners.

RAHHH.

05/11 - note that as my first tears-inducing A's paper. i'd do just as well not submitting that frigging script. to think that Chem was supposedly my strongest subject; it's devastating that im now worried about merely passing.

RAHHH.

[considering the plethora of effort MrL invested in me, i cant bring myself to face him if i screw up Chem. i'll hate myself for failing him. he got all emotional on his last day with us, i was ouwh-so-touched. his mood-swings have definitely impacted me in manyyy ways, i think i'll miss him. "the pen is mightier than a sword" he wrote to us. i'll use a pen to kill myself then, ahah.! heh. bedek.]

chem aside. i shall say that im relatively [highlight this word, relatively.] pleased with H2 Bio paper. completed it in 2hrs.! for the first time in my whole college history.! an achivement okayyy, despite blatantly skipping qns i term as having disposable marks.

[MrsY is so gonna strangle me when she reads this. AHAH.]

i cant recall what comes between King Phillips and the Green Soup. is Charles Darwin still alive.? my turn to strangle someone.! tsk.

quality wise, let's put a concealer ey.? heh.

[MrsY is definitely another tutor i'll miss- if i dare admit growing any more mature in thoughts throughout my whole college years, i'll attribute it to her. but! i've grown numb about disappointing her since i've longg accepted that i cant meet her expectation; doing better than her uncountable A's-filled cert. ahah. brutal reverse-psychoing; i'll be a teacher so i can do that just like her, ahah.! truly an inspiration.]

Math.? im not sure. i felt better upon completion of these papers, compared to my Prelims which i allllmost became a legend in class - quoted frm an idiotic cgmate. what im sure about, my papers arent mark upon 100%. they cant be. disposable marks.? ahah. tskkk.

[MrY's too nice, he wont strangle me. he'd always visit my seat in tutorials, glance at my script, appear sincerely emphatic, say 'dont worry, try harder next time!' and give a faint innocent smile before walking away - leaving me guilt-concentrated and on the verge of breaking down though im almost always able to convert those emotions into laughters which makes myself look apathic instead since i inexorably disappoint him. i wont get to be comforted like that for A's. He has the most patience, im ashame of my personal lack of effort. heh.]

though i hope i'll at least pull through with what effort i've put in these last sprints.

anddd. i hereby declare myself officially UNRELATED TO H2 MATH.! give me YAYs.! math is off the chart. permanently, presumably. unless of course, when i retake my A's next year. when, not if. hoho.

im not trying to input additional burden on my parent's mindframe, but maybe they should at least be mentally prepared to embrace that as my prospects for 2008. im utterly sorry to have been a disappointment again, i really am. heh.

General Paper.? ahah. i've seen A1, and i've seen F9. my language grades fluctuations are even more unpredictable than the hormone levels in me. ahah.! bottom line, though i did complete my papers; i shall not comment on GP.


ALRIGHT. im done lamenting. why did i even bother to cumbersomely elaborate about each papers.? so that i wouldnt be tempted to blog again for the next two weeks. makes sense.? yes, i'll let myself be deprived. ahah.

i've had many other non-A'levels related stuffs streaming through my mind that i wanted to blog about, but considering how long this entry already is, i'll pass. A's on top of my priority list now ey.?

YES.

do not worry, im still hanging on. persevering. =))


as much dreadful the thought of getting A's results would be, i cant wait. eradicate the nerves of anticipation earlier, the better.

to whom this may concern,
if i screw up my A's like i've been screwing up examinations throughout my college life, i'll have only myself to be blamed. i'll put it upon myself to make things right, and i willllllllll get myself a degree the way you've prayed for all my life. even if it takes more than the five years supposedly zero-family-obligations you gave when i first entered college.

on a more optimistic note, i can do it.! yay.! AHAH.
if i do get into a uni course next year, miraculously pulling through the URGH A's,
all that i can say would be.
alhamdulillah, segala puji bagi Allah. hee. =)


"the best thing in life is to not want what you can have..." -wise old man, ahah.

i hope i get many, many best thingsss in life.
"i could have studied harddd and get triple A's, but i choose not to want it.?"

nyahahaa. sour grapeee.

okay, i'll get it.

and yes yes, im still hanging.! my parents really ought to stop worrying, though the great deal of concern they've splashed on me are much muchhh appreciated. motivating.


before you leave. once again, say a prayer for me please.?
it should contain these, "make the examiners lenient, give munirah good grades, and let her enter uni next year." nyahahaa.

thank you.! hee. =))

i tink im starting to sound spastic from excessive laughters despite being sunken deep into this trying moments of A's. hoho. it's not that i do not care, i just will not succumb to a state of depression from this stress. like PMS isnt sufficient enough.? nyahahaa*

alright, toodles.! weets. =))


All Smiles,
*MUNIRAHHH.


ps: googles search for ___ will not lead you to my blog unless you've alllll the time in the world, liarrr. hoho. all the lost times.

ON HIATUS, still.

my advances.

and the journey of an ending begins.

exciting.? hee.

my last official college day was heart-rending.
though non-conclusive; the ambiance of the sadistic examination was pervasive.
haha. okay, exaggerated.

nevertheless.! i look forward to my last official A'levels day.

22nd November 2007, a day already marked on my calender.

exciting.? hee.

till that day comes. endure with my entangled self. i shall continue to have obsessive-compulsive disorder for the next 23 odd days. in the spirits of mug-arathon.?
nyahahaa.

joking.

"do not lose to lazy people."
my motivation frm a teacher, uhhuh. ahah.

alright. my blog cobwebs-dusting ends here.
HIATUS resumes.

if you've faithfully read to this line,
say a prayer for me before you leave please.?
much, muchh appreciated. hee.

"God helps those who persevere."
another motivation frm a teacher, frm 'the Koran' he stated. ahah.


i felt intelligent when i sat for Streamings at Primary 4.
i felt smart when i sat for PSLE at Primary 6.
i felt "there are worst morons out there" [words of a ruthless yet somewhat motivating teacher] when i sat for O'levels.

havent my education journey been a blissful one.? ahah, totally.

i'm feeling ___ __ ___ _____ ____ as im sitting for A'levels.
fill in the blanks, you dont have to be positive. ahah.

not the optimistic one, but definitely still your happy-happy girl.


All Smiles,
*MUNIRAH. =))


PS: reminder. on HIATUS. hee.

* once upon a time.*

walking down memory lane;

pictures are worth a thousand words.

here's the top picks per event of my gorgeous, gorgeous week.

if any parts of the pictures below have anything to do with you

[yes, even the tiniest notes. hee.]

then this blog entry is a 'thank you' dedication going out to you.

once again, to all who rmb - much appreciated.! loves*

4th august.

another celebration with dearest most beloved family.! it's actually Aimah's bday, and a belated one for me. we missed 3rd aug cos i felt dead asleep at 7pm.! nyahahaa*

ouwh. shouting out to AIMAH.

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY DARLING.! =))

*our gorgeous personalised cake, specially baked by our gorgeous mum! loveee the hearts.! lpve the scrumptious cake.! LOVEs.! *

*the family's bday girls. she's my other half, preciously irreplaceable.! hee.*

*the pose with our most-touching card.

mine's a drawing block compilation by darling CGmates[masterminded by dearest A,K,S,M.!].

anddd aimah's a hearts compilation by family, made by ME.! nyaah.!*

*i've selfishly gotten the cake lighted up for myself. see, only my half of the cakes/candles were lighted.! check aimah's page to see her lighted side. ahah.!*

*the rudimentary candle-blowing process. i still cant get through the 'i wish...' part for the candle's melting while im so fickled.! for 18 yrs.! nyahahaa*

*the next rudimentary process. Cut cut, my precious cakeee.! its heartbreaking, totally. nyahahaa.*

*this was an impromtu cake-feeding process requested by dearest mum. ahah.! dont stare too long, okay, let's move on. nyahahaa.*

*daddy's little girls.! the pose before one of aimah's most controversial present, hilarious.! nyahahaa.*

2nd August

now this is the celebration that was not belated. and honestly, among the best ones on my list.

the elements of surprised, cheated, excited, touched, and what nots.

the most significant reason for my overwhelming plethora of euphoria and gratification was the fact that it was perfectly planned -

the company of my precious darlings in the midst of my most beloved family, and in the comfort of my favourite place; home sweet home.!

it spells perfection.! much LOVEs to all.! =))

*the gorgeous piece of artwork that truly awed me. i was made speechless for the moments after K/A presented it to me. but this pic was taken the day after. hee.*

*and this is my most dearest page of the whole drawing block series.! the darlings who perfected my 2nd august.! FRENZ 4EVER!! hee.*

*at the scene of crime at the exact time with the exact fraud mastermind.! i love that darling ouwh-so-much, and that gorgeous card is my favourite of the year.! nyahahaa.*

*this was the utterly unexpected.! another highlight of my day.! another HEARTs cake.! ouwh goshh, it was simply gorgeous. LOVEs.!*

*caught in my most unexpected moment, i was extremelyyy overwhelmed. too much emotions streaming through me, lucky lala's cam fails to capture the tiny details. ahhh.*

*that's my darling bday surprise crew.! Kimkee, Nabila, ShiRong, Aixin, MiaoDe.! I LOVE THEM ALL pleaseeee.! a real blessing to have my life crossed path with theirs. much muchh appreciated.!*

*another one with a different angle. Miao2 made me that balloon sculpture, he underestimated the size of my brain initially.! nyahahaa. after modification, it fits perfectly here. again. LOVE themmm.!*

*now look at that girl.! she was the crew's insider.! my sister is a cheaterrr.!! nyahahaa. perfect planning lahhh. love, loveee.*


okay. that's all i got from lala's cam for that eventful day. i've yet to get the rest from, the rest. nyahahaa. overall, they're the adorable white chocolates on my gorgeous heart cake.!

soon after they left, around 9pm, my mum and younger siblings took over.! i fell in love with all the gifts.! hee.! unluckily, dint get any family pic for it. sad saddd*

1st August

the day before, we had phototaking.! with my beloved Floorball Girls Team.

plus, handing over. new ExCo'08 members were revealed, and im pleased with all those who made it. depressingly, i wasnt there to see it happen. i wasnt part of the moment when my captaincy was stripped away.!

cos i had to donate blood at the most untimely moment. or rather, sheeee had to reveal it at my most untimely moment.

okay, i was sad on 1st august, though many memorable events took place. i was utterly sad. for oneee event. trivial on my part, but whatever, it's was MY_____.!

a mix of _____ towards _____ for making me feel ______ when im practically _________. haiiii*

anyway. spent some time preparing stg for the Adivs team, and well, my whole team. here's just one of the stg. aint so proud of it now, since i dint even get to say a formal goodbye. haiiiiiiiiii*

because of that particular _______, i felt uncompassionate about my supposedly compassionate service to the society. urghhh* i felt heartless then, and that's a sucky feeling to be having while ur blood's being drained out okayyy. gosh. Ms___, i ___________ okay.

nonetheless. the aftermath of blood donation was nice. there was still a tinge of satisfaction, i guess. minus the ______, this was definitely a memorable event. thanks to Lala for dragging me impromptu-ly. ahahh.

*with lala in line, waiting for our fingers to be pricked. we've got enough iron, yayy.! ahah.*

*Blood Donation.! darlings accompanying me in the process. sweet of themmm.! i was touched, really. and it dint hurt at all, really.*

*the final pose with my bandaged arm before removing it for a shower. it's pinkkk, i still have it. ahah.!*




okay, back to bday stories. to sum up this entry, look at all my gifts.! i love stacking them up for display on my bed, cos it makes my siblings envious. nyahahaa.! this yr's structure was confusing, hohoho.

here's pics before i demolish the structure. credits to aimah and my cam phone. =)

*my gorgeous structure. nyahahaa.*

*my precious, right smiles.!*

*and myyy precious, left smiles!*

alright. seriously, this is the end. pretty pictures yeahhh.

memories worth a lifetime please.

once again, to all that matters.

Thankkk youuuuu.!

LOVE, LOVEs.! hee. =))

Yours Truly,

*MUNIrahhh.! =))

PS: i may be eighteen but i still wanna be childish.! young at hearts yeahhh, nyahahaa. forever mummy's/daddy's little girl.! hee.

* hearts-filled gorgeous day.

OMG.

the surprise was spectacular. im touched, every single tiniest bit of the thoughts and efforts.

here's a summary; my 2nd august 2007 was simply gorgeous.! hee.

to all the lovely people who made my day - from dear well-wishers, msgers, msn-ers, testimonial-ers, gift-ers and sing-ers;
THANKS A HEAP. yall definitely will neverrr be forgotten. =))

to my beloved family - HEARTS*
my siblings are ouwh-so-irritatingly-adorable.! all 4 of them, love.! hee.
though im officially eighteen and supposedly liberated - my parents are the most dearest people in my life! yes dad, i'll let mum win for this reason.! ahah*

to dearest AIXIN, MIAO2, KIMKEE, AHRONG, anddd LALA.!!!
i dedicate this section of my bday update to you five.
i am utterly gratified. THANK YOU is an understatement. the whole _____ was perfect, simply perfect. i was lost for words. i still am touched. you people are the gorgeous white chocolates on my gorgeous heart cake today.!
ouwh, of course.! you girls/guys are gorgeous.! i love you girls.! [and thanks you guys.! ahah.]
[sorry, no details here.]

okay, okay. stop muni.

ey. im still very touched. today was prettyyyy. love, loveee.!


love love love,
*MUNIrahhh. =))

ps: another pretty start. hee.

* all good things.

...come to an end.

ouwh-too soon. well, ouwh well.

my last day being seventeen, was memorable indeed.
firstly. i got stripped from my captaincy. *heartbreaks*
ahah. but im proud of the next Ex-Cos.
secondly. i DONATEd my BLOOD. i feel good.!
a whole year's postponement. nyahahaa.

seventeen was gorgeous, definitely.
much love to all that matters. hee.


love,
*MUNIrahhh.

ps: still on hiatus.! hoho. =(

ouwh my.

the past two weeks have been one major roller coaster ride. seriously major.

utra busy nowadays with school stuff, physical and mental languor is slowly seeping thru my cells. i've ALOT to update on, but i cant right now.

with the end of Adivs, cease of CCAs, deprivation of my love [floorball].
hereee comea Alevels.!

3 more month till the frigging papers, im flustering.

bottom line. ON HIATUS. =))

Love,
*MUNIrahhh.

ps: teachers treated us fballers to Pizza.! weets.
pps: im still pissed abt yesty's news. haiii* not funny please.
ppps: im soo gonna step down ouwh-so-soon. sad saddd. nyaah.

* A Divisionnns *

alright. monday was updated.
and its friday already.! hoho.

im actually pretty elated today. but the timing now has drained me. so expect a monotonous entry yeah.

whole week had revolved around my 1st love, floorball.! im in love, at the expense of missing tutorials/lectures. matches were early, so had to leave my 2nd love for 3 solid days. hoho.

if you're still wondering what's 2nd love - was referring to tutorials/lectures.

well, i happen to enjoy my learning journey okay. nyaah. [a'lvls coming.! wake up.!]

if you had read my previous entry, you'd know that we loss the first A'divs match on Monday. and i was ultra despondent about it. cos my gerls fell wayyy below my expectations. got caught mentally unprepared. hehh.

vs NJC : 2-5 theirs.

bad baddd start.
called for emergency damage-control on Tuesday. tried fixing MsL's headless-flies. CoachM was gorgeous enough to come down and help. i owe that one to him.
elucidated him abt the +/- of each lines, andddd. yeah, some changes. hee.

darling teammates were down. i felt so mentally retarded trying to motivate everyone, wen i was depressed myself.

Wednesday. woke up, hyped to kill someone on court. wandering minds for 1.5hrs in class. then off we go.! wanna kill, killlll.! a gorgeous rainbow coloured our morning assembly skies.! i was hyped.
but again,

if you still do not know, i shall tell you now. we loss our second A'divs match too, on Wednesday.

vs RJC : 3-6 theirs.

i was so ______.
yes, the girls picked up. the match was simple, we took the lead. but the girl's efforts were just not enough. again, seemed like only line 1 was functional. again, i got angry/disappointed/frustrated.

(i'd almost-always convert all these feelings into one; veryyy sad. and when compounded, i'd break down, but.! im not suppose to, cos im ______. tsk.)

really. manyyy breaking down moments. with manyyy diff girls. and i have to play the-strong-one with dearest yuni. herr*

met dearest aye.! OMG. i miss her. and i feel bad. and i miss her. ahah.

supported our guys team later. OMG. i swear our guys did great. felt very URGH-ed when we lost eventually. it was ouwh-so-urghhh. the guys deserve more.

MsL kept reminding us of the guys' play. motivated me/yuni. edge on Line 2. i so love that teacher pls.

and i envy how Caleb maintains his cool on court. remained so composed and strong for his team. and skills are superb. he's definitely one heck of a captain uhh.

MsL went 'muni, runnn like _____.! remain calm like _____.! be _________.!' nyahahaa.

anyway. wednesday was the worst.

Thursday. woke up. dead tired - physically and mentally. i had no expectations/visions/goal in mind for the match. thought, ouwh well, we'll fight hard.!

yada yada. manyyy weird baddd stuffs happen before the match. even bus was LATE. still, remained calm - Caleb's teaching. nyahahaa.

Seniors came.! GOSH. i love themmm.! and you know, im still afraid of our former captain. nyahahaa.

niways. we started, on our own. line 1 played, maintained structure. wen we changed lines, COACH WAS THERE.! OMG. that sudden sense of assurance and motivated was priceless. i was truly elated please. ahah.

yada yadaa. very close match. all the way, tense moments. was afraid of turning tables.

ALL my girls stepped up.! ultra proud of them for picking up and neverrr giving up on the team.! heyy, the 2 loss was ultra demoralising okay.

_____ live up to being the best. _____ defence is woahh. ____ steady uhh.

i still cant recall seeing a high stick. 5 frigging mins penalty please. but its okay.!

vs VJC : 3-4 ours.! WEE.

ahh* the rest of the day was simply gorgeous. went home feeling fruity for once. ahahh. ouwh.! fast food with fadh, naz, SYAHIDA, yuni at LJS.! niceee. journey home was chatty, 969 superrr pack. ahah.

i miss syahidaaa.! a lot a lot a lot.!!! =)))

the day was pretty. and guess what.
darling Lala got me a gorgeous box of Choco Dates - no occassion.! was merely to cheer me up before boarding the bus vs VJ. omggg. she's like the sweetest person ever.!

i love nabilaaa.! a zillion box of choco dates.!!

and dearest-most-beloved mum is ouwh-so-supportive.! cheered me up before i left home in the morning, and said she'd pray for us. i was so, touched.!

i love makkk.! a trillion hugs and kisses.!!

okay. i shall stop. point is.
IM PROUD OF MY GIRLS.

Yuni, Sya, Sha2, Nad, Lela
Fiqah, Fadh, Naz, Iris, Lihui
Atassha, Cien, Dee, Anne, Nat, Aza, Zaf.

LOVE YOU'ALL.!

Friday, trg.! coach came earlier than those having lessons. team size was pathetic. hehh. but eventually, was okay. reallyyy hope the girls get it. hmms.

rushed to TSH after trg. supported the guys. Weehee.! WE WON. our guy's team is HOT. nyahahaa.

guys vs NJC : 6 -1 ours.!

pretty. now Caleb's bugging me about announcing our victories during morning assembly. told him we wanna stay low, and he said 'dont bullshit with me can?' sooo, aiyohhh.! nyahahaa. either way.

WELL DONE TEAM INNOVA.! =))

ahhh* very glad that the week is coming to an end. mental retardation plus physical languor. five solid days of floorball. only a few more days to do, shall treasure this experience.


syukur alhamdulillah,
for everything. hee.

next week busy-busy.!
bring it on.!

love my life.! woots.!


cherishing moments,
*MUNIRAH. =)


ps: promised MrsCT that i will not neglect my studies during the Adivs seasons, so far im keeping up for all. except GP assignments, overdued.! ahh, Sorry MrGP.! wasnt the slightest bit intentional defiance on my part. sorryyyyyy.

today simply _____.

urghhhhhhhh.!

okay, minus the dinner plus journey home with fballers part.

Adivisions STARTS.
swollen leg frm sprains.
forgot to get capt's armband.!
forgot to bring my jersey.! @#$%^&
failed badly for a section of H1 econs.!
capt's embarassing moment in LT1.
failed H2 Chem paper 1.
had ______ at baddd timing.! along with many other fballers.
first match against the team we won abt a mth before.

and dearest coach couldnt make it for our firrrst Adivs match.
sad.

and worst of all.

... our tables got turned today.

we freakingly ____ by __-__.!!

!#$%^&*&^%$#
mistakes, mistakes, mistakes.!

okay. calm down. aahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.!
shit.! damn it.! freak.! urgh.!

the team's failure today was mine for neglecting the lines which really needed help; was too busy perfecting only my line to realize the ____ problem earlier.

MsCapt, im disappointed not in the team, but in you. damn it.

we've failed with depending on Line 1 only, we wont fail again. we're a team, and we'll work on every single one of you eighteen girls, every single line in my team.

to my girls, do not give up. for we've only just begun.
plus. im not angry. was just in the midst of languor and disappointment, yeah.

rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.!
sad, still.

had ______ talk with dearest MsVcapt and CoachJ after. was so ______.!
let it all out, glad she was there. she's strong uh, heh.
thanks a lot gerl, much appreciated.!

lala, gerls, MsV and darling seniors text me soon after. hp and msn.
i was so very touched by each. especially the seniors.
Every one of them made me ____.

muni's emotionally unstable period. heh.
very sad, still.

and you do not have to be __________.
just do not rub it in.
i'll be on the verge of another _________,
and you will take it personally.

this will be my _____ as ____, and last _____.
so god please, ___________________.

im all agitated and fired for weds, watch me fight.!
girls, say goodbye to your all-smiles Captain.
being nice apparently dint work. so FOCUS.


rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.!


i WANT it ouwh-so-very badly PLEASE.!

rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.!


answer my prayers,
*MsCapt.


ps: on a happier note. i did well for BIOLOGY.! jumped 4 grades up.! nyahahaa.
pps: still, dearest MrsBio expected more from me. herr, how much more.?! A.?
ppps: i will deliver results, i will.! try. ahah.!
pppps: okay, C for bio prelims is an achievement. but the paper was really very easy. ntg to be proud of i guess. hehh.

ppppps: my mind's still on fb though. ahhh.! i need sleep. too much tragedy. heh.

alright. quick update.!

one week of prelims, down. with five papers completed.

two more application papers for next week.
then camp with dear floorballers.! looking forward.
anddd. finally, adivs is here.! for elevennn days. herr*

ouwh. fixtures are out.! had butterflies in my stomach. but i guess being busy keeps the butterflies hibernating. ahahh.

econs was, flowing with thoughts. though once again, was succumbed to the constraints of time. thoughts were not penned, thus i declare. the screwing up of essay.! tsk.

bio was OMG. i hate myself for not completing it. again, time factor. it was soooooo easy, i will not forgive myself if i do not produce results. even dreamt re-doing the easy paper that very evening.! tsk.

chem was, ahah. i wont hate myself if i do not get results. considering how minimum the effort was. then again, sucha waste.
Paper 2 was relatively easy. but Paper 1 was filled with 'mini-my-nee-mini-more's. tsk.

math was, ahahaa. was tempted to drop the subject for prelims by my peers influence. considering the opportunity cost of trying to revise math before math+chem papers, i really did forgo paper 1. tsk.
there wasnt much for me to write, my head went blanked after evry qns. the longgg 3hrs was dreadfully cold.
BUT. by my parent's influence, i did put in effort for paper 2. thought the paper was okay, definitely much more to write this time. little blank-head moments. so that's good.

the longgg 3 hrs was still dreadfully cold.

which reminds me. we finally got our class jacket.! turned out to be a pullover, and slightly below expectations given the cost. but still, in the name of class spirit.! wee. =))

LT3 benches are currently my fav mugging area in sch. with dear lala and aixin being permanent residents, while sofy, kimkee, and suqin visits on occasions. relatively productive, i must say. though home is still top on my list. hee.

exam periods are really unhealthy. i havent been running or what nots. on top of that, there's a plethora of food at home. ouwhh, the temptations. nyahahaa.*

and yeah.! the sunday before econs paper, i turned out being a hair stylist. ahah.! chopped of my dearest-most-beloved mum's hair, considerably presentable i guess. but aimah's fringe, OMG.! nyahahahaaa. kay, shant elaborate. but they're both very appreciative, free service what.! ahahh.

been catching up with june-break-lost friends too. shant say i missed them, but things are looking brighter for everyone ey. tats comforting to know. ahah.

lala's making me consider my after-A's plans. realised i havent thought much abt it. tskk. many options now, but those can wait till realiiii after-A's. ahah. she really makes me thinkkk, a darling fren of mine.

still, i'd say my parents are my best confidante, everrr.
nyahahaa.

with people like them around,
there's really much to appreciate about life.
despite all the EXAMS. ahahh.


my life's prettyyyy,

*Munirah Bte Md Sani (07) 0611D

ps: still in exam mode, i've written the above a countless time pls. nyahahaa.

* muni loves mum.! *

danggg. this is belated. ouwh well.!

refer to my entry dated 17 June eyy. hoho.



here's a pic of the apple pie that we baked.! yeah, i noe the font looked childish. but there really wasnt much options for deco. least it tasted scrumptious.? nyahahaa.

and heyy. it's the thought that counts.!


I LOVE DAD.! =))

ouwh.! we actually baked threeee apple pies . ahah.! the first was normal, no deco. 2nd was Father's Day.

3rd was a mini one, tribute to mum and dad. it'll make more sense if you know my parent's name. ahah.!

here it is.! nyahahaa.

and ouwh.! i just felt the urge to snap this pic, and post it.! its a section of the gift note that my youngest brother made for darling dad, plus a Mars bar. hilarious, i was laughing my butts off.! kids say the darnest thing, but he's already nine please.! nyahahaa.

"i wish you will never meninggal."
nyahahahahahahaa.

tuesday. was home bound. love my family, much.! weets. =))

wednesday. morning trg.! i just realised, it's probly the lassst trg me/yuni would have to conduct. kannn.? aww* shud have treasured the moments.! ahahh. ouwh, MsL made us do PT after all the drills/match. nyahahaa.~

had a date with aimah after trg. so.! i made her come for trg with me, in my PE tee.! that slenger bacin actually willingly obliged. ahh, my lil sister is so innocent. nyahahaa.

was too lazy/tired to go far-far. so eventually just shopped at my playgrounds. cwpt, sunplaza, yishun's pasar malam.! nyaah. got what we needed for thursday, impulsively.

i've a confession. aimah spent all the money dad gave us. nyahahaa. uhuhh*

had lotsa short naps afterwards. yada yadaa. waited for mum to sleep, while aimah cleared the kitchen. and at 2am, we become bakers.!

ouwh.! like the fairytale, 'the elves and the shoemaker'.! nyahahaa.

cake was ready in the fridge when mum woke up in the morning.! surpriseee.! wee.

yerps. baked a cake for dearest-most-beloved mum's bday.! its on the 21st. was suppose to be a surprise, but im sure she anticipated it already. that's why she slept IN her bedroom instead of outside. we're just so predictable. nyahahaa.

i love this part of the cake.! aimah's idea. can you tell.? its a happy-happy marshmellow family.! mum + dad + 5 lil kids [abgDir, me, aimah, musa, harun lined up.!] AHAHAA.


niways.! the whole baking was a success.! the cake was pretty [yes, im proud of this art], and thank god it tasted pretty too. since it was all gone in 24hrs and dad asked to bake another. ahah.!

kay, that's my elated face with the pretty final product. look at the cake lahhh. pardon the stoink face, it was already 4am please.! nyahahaa.

anyway.! left a note in the fridge too, funnyyy. aimah/me slept at 6am [cos we waited for subuh] and thus, i woke up at noon. mum was cooking in the kitchen, and i went all hype with 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY makkk.!'

she called me over, dig stg in her purse, and with a sajer2 face, gave me 50 cents.! it would make more sense if you know what i wrote in the note. nyahahahahaa. i was laughing so hard, i dropped to the floor, literally. ahh* mum is veryyy appreciative. i so love that lady please. nyahahahaa.

we had some family gathering at Costa Sands resort in the late evening, that's why mum was cooking alot. i helped out, cut all the roti boyan, and made doughnuts.! woohoo. so that's basically how i spent my day. in the kitchen with mum.! loves* ahah.

chalet outing was happy, happy. all the mini-mini cousins were there. ate a lot, obvious rite.? ahah.! reached home at 1+am, did econs assignment, dozed off along the way. tucked into bed properly at 3+am. overslept, woke up at 7.10am when trg starts at 8am on Friday.! nyahahaa. darling brother drove me to sch, so i wasnt late, hee.! left trg halfway for Econs at 9am, grrr. but it was okay uhh, revised a lot. blissful consultation, all tucked in a lib room. ahahh.

niways.! back to thurs. celebrated when dad got home from work. weets.! the rudimentary of a bday celebration uhh, shant elaborate. but it was all pretty. hee. ouwh.! now i tink 42 is a pretty number.! nyahahaa.

for 21st June '07.
to my dearest-most-beloved mother,
Happy Birthday Mak darlinggg.!
u're simply the bestest. muaaahs.!

I LOVE MUM.! =))

a million pink flower marshmellows.! <3





family equates love. muni loves family.! family like marshmellows.! marshmellows are pretty. pretty is family. family is life, life is pretty.! nyahahahaa.



okay. bottom line.

I LOVE MY LIFE.
plus the family.
inclusive of mum and dad.
not forgetting the irritating siblings.
and the darling friends,
inclusive of dear floorballers.





syukur alhamdulillah. =))






happy-happy mummy's girl,
*yahhh.! <3

* muni loves IJ Floorballers.! *

hola.!


ouwh god* its already week FOUR of the hols.! alright, here's a confession.


i have not been mugging [and i really mean NOT] for the prelims, and im not the slightest bit agitated by that disturbing fact. prelims 1 is a goner for me. tskkk.


on a prettier note. week four has been, pretty hectic.? associated with enjoying myself, that is. hoho.


MONDAY. had fb trg at Kallang's Valhall.! trained to dhoby with fadh. met up with the darling team mates at Plaza Spura. was a tweeny bit pass 2pm, so almost everyone was already there waiting. you noe, my girls are gorgeous.! nyahahaa.


i had this gush of feeling proud, walking with the whole group of ladies in purple with sticks. i've missed them, somehow.

ouwh.! we all wore our new jerseys for the first time. look at my number.! TWENTY-TWO. wee.!
ouwh ouwhh.! i tink purple can be my new favourite colour wen im done with pink, its pretty.! nyahahaa.

and.! bumped into Aye with her stick, weets.! and she greeted me with ' eyy bastard!'
[ps to aye: pak cik sani will be reading this. AHAHAA.]



kay, back to trg. urghh.! was still recovering, i felt dead unfit pls. was breathless merely frm the hour girls trg. dennn, another hour for friendly with guy's team. had dizzy spells every time my line breaks, i was literally stoning beside injured dear MsVcapt. lost sense of the match. tsktsk.

even coach said i looked 'out of sorts'. herrr*

pissed with myself, though proud of my linemates. match was bleargh cos i personally wasnt on top form. but coach said the girls team did great despite being trashed, so kudos to my girls ey.! love yall still.! <33

yada yadaa. dinner at KFC with darling fbmates, some left. space constraints, so split tables. i was awed by the free-flow of drinks.! and i felt so sinned while eating. had great laughs though, greaaat.! nyahahaa.

bus to city hall mrt, trained to yishun. bus ride was utterly crappy. the guys team is a fun bunch, veryy entertaining. learnt a new term, mrt-ing to marina and back is called 'bouncing'.! ahahh. train ride was crappy too, love those girls.! journey home was veryy pleasant. =))

reached home at 9+. yada yada, online and crapped with fballers plus coach. our coach is ouwh-so-nice.! okay, he's in my bestfriend list now. ahahh. so you see. monday was a fb-filled day. i love my floorballers ouwh-so-much.! nyahahaa.

this whole entry is fb-filled too. i shall continue abt none-fb stuffs in a new entry. AHAH.

ouwh. i suddenly miss those days with our floorball seniors. herrr*


fb-love all over again,
*MUNIrahhh. <33

* muni loves dad.! *

ouwh god*

the pass one week had been atrocious. my body temperature ranging from 38.4'C to 39.3'C pretty much confined me to the boundaries of my room. or rather, my bed.

i cant rmb the last time i got terminally ill, but this round was really-really-really bad.

ouwh. i loss 3kg in 5 days by just sleeping. muahahaa.

lesson learnt. i will never-ever-everrr not sleep for 31hrs straight, ever again.

my world was literally turning, towel dipped in ice water was my faithful night companion for a week. my fingers turned purple twice a day from cold showers. and my lips had its natural red glow from feeling heaty inside. ouwh, my face turned flawless for being washed every 30mins to keep cold. not bad eyy.?

baddd. i missed two trg sessions for being too weak physically. pathetic, for a captain. tskkk.

in any case. i came down on weds, guilty conscious. plus. we've got out purple puma jerseys.! yayys. friday was bedridden, so dun ask. herrr*

anddd now. im up and functioning.! mum has taken over my place as the sick lady of the house. i shall be strong now.! nyahahaa.

ouwh ouwhhh.! today's FATHER'S DAY. anddd. [thank god i'm well already.] baked Apple Pie for dearest daddy.! mum gave the idea and recipe. aimah bought the stuffs and peeled the apples. i baked.! scrumptious.! nyahahaa.

[okay, puji diri sendiri. uncalled for. but seriously, it turned out pretty. nyahahaa.]

to dearest-most-beloved dad, happy father's day.! you know i love you, ouwh-so-much. =))
i tink my dad's the best, the best for me and my family. wee hee.!

alright. tmr's trg with the guys team at Kallang. looking forward to it. hoho. so off i go. probly get some stuffs done first, before bed calls.

ouwh, you noe. im progressing awfully slow for Prelim's revisions. i seem to forget it's less than a week away. ouwh, no. i rmb. tskkk.

ahh cheers, life is pretty.! hee.

i love my parents,
a dozen green apples in a pie.!

for the parents i've been blessed with,
syukur alhamdulillah. =))


blessed and thankful,
*MUNIrahhh.! <3

* gist of it.! *

week two has been merciful.

i've had a tinge of what holiday means. and its pretty.! hee.

have nothing much to complain, loves.*

i was to update about Friday's Science Centre trip for PCR workshop. BUT. i realised i have not slept for the pass 30.5hours. so, here's a quick gist of it eyy. i'll sure be back for further updates. especially about Wednesday's dinner with Cgmates at LJS Vivo City. hee.! =))

*first pic of the day, after a pretty breakfast.! mirror reflection in the ladies, ahahh. daily dozes of morning perks, LALA's my sunshine.! weehee.!

*digression through the process of PCR and electrophorosis. micropipetting is one exciting activity.! note our white lab coats.! i feel so professional/sophisticated.! nyahahaa.! love that lab partner of mine.! weets. =))








*aspired biologists in action.! alright, minus the stoning eyes. working through the day after a solid night shift is retarding, indeed. nyahahaa.! lab work aint that bad eyyy.? hmms.





*upon dismissal, us with the ones who educated us today. see the pure joy on our ultra-elated faces.! satisfied students. one final, thanky youuu.! weehee.

*as we bid farewell to our pretty-pretty lab at the entrance, one last pose for the camera.! yeahh man, everything's GOOD.! nyahahaa.*

aights. till we meet again, was definitely a trip to remember. worth all the while. weets.! love yall involved.! ahahh.

ELATED lady in white lab coat,
*MUNIrahhh.! <33